the pain of knowing

i wonder.....

           if you were to be deaf. would you rather be born deaf. living a life content with the silence. or would it be better to loose your hearing, so in your silence you can dwell in the memories of sound.

          if you were to be blind would you rather be born blind. living a life content with the darkness. or would you prefer to loose your sight, so in your darkness you can watch the slide show from your past.

          if you were to be dumb, would you rather be born dumb, unaware of your simplicity. or would you rather loose your mind with age, so in your simplicity you can smile with satisfaction.  

          if you were to loose something, wouldn't you rather you never had it in the first place? be unaware of what you have lost. because wont the memories just be tainted by the fact that it was lost. and the tainted memories will grow into resent. with resentment all beauty is lost. with resentment all truth is lost. 

   

if we do not have beauty and truth, is it really worth it?